I’m back in Texas for a week to reconnect with family and friends, chase the golf ball, and sample the new menu at Whataburger. Not exactly a bucket list but close. It’s a trip I’ve anticipated for some time and, with the girls in tow and Katie joining us for the weekend, one that does my heart good.
There’s something about going home that stirs up hard-to-describe emotions deep within me. The familiar people and places offer immediate comfort and I replay the memory movie again in my mind…a highlight reel of funny stories and go-to friends and bland routines I miss. I sense the world is right-side-up again when I come home; I just fit here better.
With time, I’m learning to suppress the woulda-coulda-shoulda thoughts that used to interrupt [and dominate!] my return visits to Texas. Our relocation to the land of $4.14/gal gasoline and inmates formerly known at Governors has forced me to drill deeper into what I actually think about God, His purposes, and how He shapes our lives. I used to [functionally] believe His primary role was to accommodate my ever-growing wish list [i.e. God exists to please me!], but I’m slowly sensing the exact opposite is true. I exist to seek and find pleasure in God. And, because He loves me with a radical, persistent, jealous love, He will use whatever means available [i.e. anything!] to remind me that my happiness in Him is far more fulfilling than in any of His creations [i.e. places, people, expanded Whataburger menus, etc.].
As difficult as it is for me to wrap my ‘wittle’ brain around, we are not built for ultimate joy in this life. This world is not our home [as the catchy old tune reminds] no matter how tempted we are to think [or determined we are to prove] otherwise. For me, that means not grinding too much about where I am or reminiscing too fondly about where I was.
“For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.” -2 Corinthians 4:17-18